I have been on an incredible journey. It has been very difficult and heartbreaking at times, but as I near my destination there has been incredible happiness. Happiness that I only dreamed of and never thought possible. For years I fought my feelings and tried to be this person that evryone expected me to be. I was never truly happy. Even now as I near my goal and as happy as I am there is a sadness. A sadness for the things that could/should have been. A sadness for the people I have hurt and am hurting now by going through with my transition. But I know, with all my heart that I am doing the right thing for me. By becoming the woman I have always felt myself to be, I am a much better, happier person. I am filled with wonder and emotion, and love as I explore this new life I have made for myself. Some people that were in my life and left me during this struggle have become to know the real me and are becoming closer friends than in the past. I know I will never give up this new life and go back to my old exhistance. I only hope those I love will understand.